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Beginning of different life

March 4, 2006
Today is 2 months since Mom Passed away. I have been having a real hard time lately realizing I am alone. Life as I knew it will NEVER again be the same.
My Uncle George sent me this scripture today which was so timely:
VERSE: Have not I commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go. -- Joshua 1:9 THOUGHT: Never alone! What a promise. God will go with him, and us, through all the seasons of life, through all our ups and downs, through temptations and triumphs, even through death (cf. Psalm> 139). So we can take courage and feel his strength. We are not alone! PRAYER: O God who is and was and is to come, thank you for being there> and staying there when all others forsake and leave. You are the one constant in my life so full of change. Help me become more steadfast and faithful in my commitments and relationships to honor you and to learn more about you. Through Jesus I pray. Amen.
This is comforting.


January 23, 2006
Well, I'm going to try to keep up on this blog as I attempt to move into my new position in life. I was Mom's daughter, constant companion and best friend for the past 7 years, she went to be with Jesus on January 4th, I can't believe it's been 19 days already.
I have good days and bad days. Some days it's all I can do to get out of bed. Other days I get excited at the prospects of the future.
I miss Mom so much. What I would give to hear her laughter one last time. She was so precious to my heart. I'm glad she didn't suffer.
Although I put alot of work into planning her memorial service, it was everything I could have wished for and more. It was beautiful hearing one by one people saying how she made them laugh, she gave them a smile, she made them forget their problems if just for a little while with a smile. She mothered so many of my friends. She knitted and crocheted things for them that they cherish.
I miss her more than I can believe and I know this will be a place to pour out my heart and sob some days and laugh some days and just fall apart others.

posted by Cynthia @ 11:34 PM